Everything. Everything

 Sometimes it's hard to love someone you haven't meet yet.

Sometimes it's hard to achieve something you had planned and it may think that life is unfair, but sometimes you just see the beauty that holds upon it. The beautiful scenery, nature feels and you think how life works. Some deeps that are swimming in one pace until it will swallow you because people's inability to connect to each other. Hopes and dreams shattered, wounded hearts and broken toys were sinking inside and were blindfolded by the depths of fears, anxieties, sin, shame and for all negative thoughts; but it's only our hearts can see the trust it upholds, the friendship we shared, the positive smile we acquired and make them as an inspiration to live on.
    Shadow danced along the hillside way while the sunlight stole around the green trees. Hopes shining, dreams shimmering. When I entered the rehab, I saw emotions flying, fears ditching, anxieties howling, hands shaking and hearts trembling. Each one of them experienced struggles, though some cases were tremendous but they can't feel it; they were numb. Some were happy, some were quite, some had creepy looking eyes and some were invisible. I was touched and nervous; I was touched because how amazing God is, even they can't feel it but still He gave them hope. I was nervous because it's my first time to encounter those "special and blessed" people.
     I thought of it, "I wonder why they end up to rehab?" First and for most,they have no Christ in their hearts. When you have Him as what the Bible says... "There is a friend sticketh closer than a brother." Simply, if you have a friend, you can express your thoughts and feelings it helps you socialize. Family, is the only one to care but some of them they don't. Some issues caused them pain, struggles and burdens. Not just family, also to the people around living in this chaotic and survival world that only you can think of it and where bounded of great walls around that led them closing doors.
    Well, the causes of these are not at one time, it also caused by a combination of biological, psychological and emotional factors. Some of these have been linked to abnormal functioning of all nerve cell circuits or pathway that connect particular brain regions. Most common factor is "Trauma", because this event can create access to stay unconsciously and can remain totally hidden from conscious mind. These factorscan lead them to instantaneous self-destruction, struggle to survive and being hungry of people's attention. It adds insult by things that pushes their conscience and irrational behavior.
    We can't judge a book by it's cover,"A benefit of the doubt" will do. Protecting them, giving them love and sympathy. Listen and realize how much pressures they handled. And that's what I thought, keeping them safe and giving them medical treatments, treatments that can help them break their walls of destruction they had faced. A place where someone who cares, keeping them know that they deserve to dream, live, hope and keeping them safe all along.
    At the moment of giving, we were so excited to extend our love, dreams and hopes to them. We gave them clothes which they can undress the past and change for the future, we gave them things to help them see the brighter side, foods that can fill the gap of sweetness of life that once bitter and smiles taht send trust of warmth and embrace their trembling hearts. A simple hand we lend can make them greater healers and a better home. Like a bird when it is inside their box it can't fly and can't extend it wings at high unless there is someone who will open the box and give freedom, that's how life works. At first i was trembled when I entered but when I saw those smiles my heart bloomed. But this is where I stand, God put me here. My passion and the willingness to help them. And that keeps my heart to sing of His love and grace.