#The Killer Inside Me

       A rainy day with a whirlwind hymn, a time when this killer inside me began. When I was 14 years old , I used to dress up so girly like wearing fancy dresses but still modest. The time I became a teen, my mom gave me girly clothes because when I was a kid I used to be boyish. Until the day when this killer came up. I was a juvenile that time, young and fresh. It was between September of 2014, when we built our house. That time, I was wearing my above the knee uniform (which is a Korean style skirt) and went to the school lavatory to wash the dishes. While washing, some guys were watching me head to toe until I noticed that those three guys were staring at me and I hurriedly went inside the room.
       Till' Saturday afternoon came, It was rainy and the river was howling. I went to the C.R to take a bath and the for "girls" C.R inline by the "boys"  C.R which has a same roof, same wall and has no ceiling. And those delivery guys came again to deliver, I was bathing while singing. At the moment of silence I noticed something very weird at my right side while facing at the center. I nervously and slowly turned my head and I saw him! Yes someone was sneaking at me. He hurriedly ran and left. It was mind blowing, thoughts running in my mind on how I was supposed to escape when he'll rape or attack me.
       I was shocked and was blank space. Minutes passed by, I heard my ate Cynthia's voice and I hurriedly called her and told her what happened lately and she brought me into or room. I was so shocked, I just sat blankly while my cousins did everything just to forget what happened. Until the night came and my family arrived from Ozamiz, I'm still so shocked and traumatized about what happened and I just sat at the corner blankly.
       Later that night, my cousin and I fought because she tore up my 1D pictures and said,"Mura pug nakaila sila nimo,wala raba!." and automatically my blood pressure rose and my anger burst out so I punch her in the face. And suddenly I felt weak, paralyzed and unconscious. The time this killer inside me created it is called Panic Disorder. Two months after, I always get attacked by this  Killer and led me to a psychiatrist and has been treated. Anytime this Killer attacks.