The Ruth of Life

 Sometimes it's hard to love someone you haven't meet yet. Sometimes it's hard to achieve something you had planned and it may think that life is unfair, but sometimes you just see the beauty that holds upon it. The beautiful scenery, nature feels and you think how life works. Some deeps that are swimming in one pace until it will swallow you because people's inability to connect to each other. Hopes and dreams shattered, wounded hearts and broken toys were sinking inside and were blindfolded by the depths of fears, anxieties, sin, shame and for all negative thoughts; but it's only our hearts can see the trust it upholds, the friendship we shared, the positive smile we acquired and make them as an inspiration to live on.     Shadow danced along the hillside way while the sunlight stole around the green trees. Hopes shining, dreams shimmering. When I entered the rehab, I saw emotions flying, fears ditching, anxieties howling, hands shaking and hearts tremblin...

        I am a joyous person, a sweet girl. A happy and blessed child. A little bit weird and nerdy but awesome. A loving friend, daughter and a sister. In times of loneliness, discouragements and pains, despite of this circumstances, I didn't give up and yet I'm fighting . And also I prayed it to the Lord. I'm a pastor's kid, a simple girl and a warrior. Even tho I'm a adopted child, a lot of people judged  me but I didn't listen for what they said. And I didn't regret that I'm an adopted child. I am so blessed, happy and contented for what I have right now. My family (the one who adopt me) they love me so much, an unconditional love. I might be a happy, joyous and smiling person but deep inside I have a weak heart. I don't have a lot of confidence in facing myself or for what am I to the people. But all of this moments and memories I experienced , one thing I do, PRAY and never Give Up!. :)         My dream is to become a Psy...

I want my life story to be told.... Everyday we meet people by reason or by chance. By hard work we succeed but with out people can we? Yes! we can! Every situations had reasons, A reason to smile and a reason to cry. Through pain we can learn, through pain we grow. Not just pain we grow, happiness also. Joy shares love. Happiness shares peace. I just want to live happily and peacefully. This how simple my life story to be told.

A-   A morning calm before I stand a cup of coffee in my hand. B-  "Brew or Americano?" he smiled and  said "You!". C-  "Come on, You better hurry because you're late now honey".  I said with a pace palm ahead. D-  Day by day memories flashed back. I couldn't help but to cry. At that time  he walked away in our wedding day was the saddest and painful times I've ever felt. It feels like the whole world pushed me down. E-  "Egg or Ham?" my friend said. "Hey!" You're out of you're mind again. How can  you move on when  you always think about him!He's gone 2 years passed when he turned his back at you." F-  For a moment of silence I bowed my head and said "Letting go is a choice but moving on is a Process." with tears fell down on my food. G-  "Got to go now" I said with a forcing smile on my face.and she said,"Where?" "In a place where I can let him go in my heart...

SHE  :) .. "A burning faith in her heart With a melody of sweetness apart With a lovely smile she have Loved by a loving God above. In every pain she may fall She, a girl with a pain to recall Unto God she surely call With a blessed kind of soul."

On a hill far away Stood an old rugged cross. Where people saw it everyday,  But no one take the cause. Drops of blood that shed Where stain and shame had fled The emblem of suffering, Our shame carried by a King. I'll cherish the old rugged cross And cling the cause, Where crown of glory Bestowed to a sinner like me.